I've been sitting here at home doing nothing for the past 2 days, too depressed to go to work. I didn't get the job i wanted (really, really badly) and it feels like 2006/2007 all over again. (In case you missed/not noticed it , I was a depressed, narcissistic bastard...)

I'm scared.
Scared of the fact that I might hate working at my job but end up settling for it until I retire,  scared that the relationship i have now won't work out in the future and god-dam scared shitless I won't have what it takes to get my dream career and end up unemployable. How I felt at the end of 2006

Then I found my old livejournal account and start looking back. I don't know how or why but it makes me alot better. I've changed since then and so have other people.

I'm not going to give in. I will be at work on Monday.

This looks awesome....good waste of 5 mins.

Clicky!

If u dont know what i'm talking bout just reply.

Very funny new Mercedes ad spoofs the rivalry between F1 driver’s Hamilton and Alonso - albeit with a rather disturbing cameo at the end. I just love it when Hamilton hits the floor!

Due to boredom I've now got a Facebook, MySpace AND a Bebo account. Add me if you like^^

After a crappy start to the year things are looking up.
I've apply for this job...

I've passed the first two hurtles (being the application and physical) and now awaiting mental and medical testing.
I did the physical testing today which is one of the hardest things I've done in a while (in terms of physical testing)
I was required to do;
30 Push ups in 60 seconds
40 Sit ups in 90 seconds (hands on heads)
and a Shuttle run (beep test) minimum of 8.1

Yep, I passed them all. It doesn't look hard but believe me it's physically draining (try it for yourself)

I applied for a branch of the AFP which is called the Protective Service Officers which look like these guys.

(RAA troops on the right and PSO's on the left deployed at Solomon Islands Riots April 2006)

They're usually placed on Major Australian airports or Commonwealth establishments (embassies, houses) around Australia but can be deployed Overseas... I hope I don't get placed at Darwin or Perth... I hope it's Sydney, Canberra or Melbourne...
Almost the same powers as state police...more info here
Also get to ride in one of these.

Yay!

Might be a little to early to celebrate but it's raised my spirits up!
I find it a bit odd that the NSW Police Force rejected my application but the Australian Federal Police accepted my application...

Also visited the Australian War Memorial (only suppose to stay for an hour but ended up being 3, very moving and interesting) and the Australian Police Honor Memorial for the officers who have fallen in the line of duty.
By Night By Day


Anyways, I better sleep...so buggered from today. Wish me luck on my application!!!

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Let God have mercy on us all...